Update on my life

I learned I wasn’t crazy. lol. I learned to never distrust my intuition or what my body felt.

Everything I felt around my ex was valid. My body was reacting that way for a reason.

My body knew I deserved better but my ego didn’t think that was possible.

My skin has gotten clearer, I haven’t been insanely bloated,(even tho I’m not eating the healthiest lol. Back in Texas I ate super healthy and was still bloated and inflamed but it was never about the food.)

I’m pretty sure I’ve lost weight too because my clothes aren’t tight.

Not to mention I’ve been creating again!! Drawing, painting, creating videos. It’s such a fulfilling feeling!

It’s been really fucking nice.

It’s been amazing living with people who make feel supported and don’t judge my mistakes, or try to logically explain my emotions, or even try to invalidate them. I feel safe in this house. I feel I’m able to safely communicate. I just feel so overwhelmed with gratitude here.

It’s something I’ve wanted for a long time.

Now don’t get me wrong. It hasn’t been all sunshine and rainbows for me here. I’ve also experienced grief of my old life. Grief over a breakup. Grief of the old me.

And boy was I stressing out about money(still kinda am but not as much).

Applying to jobs is never a fun process, I’ve always felt so limited with jobs too. I got rejected by Aldis and it discouraged me into even applying at other places but I pushed through anyway.

I ended up getting hired at a different grocery store that sells all organic and natural products and I’m actually so excited for it lol. It’s my kind of store and having a discount for food? Hell yeah brother.

Also not to mention they give you a birthday bonus even if you don’t work that day you still get a bonus like hello??? I should’ve known I was going to get the job because an older lady complimented my interview outfit lol I hope the universe blesses her!

But yeah, I’m excited on what else I get to experience here and see what Kansas City has in store for me.

🩵🩷💚