Use What You Have

Being chronically online, it's easy to see all these people have over consumption of just about anything. From cups to knickknacks, to perfumes to matcha, to literally anything. A part of me judged those people, only to realize I fall under that category too. I have so much makeup from work that is given to me, yet I still buy stuff from there too. I caught myself wanting to buy every single matcha I come across. I want all these excessive things, only for there to be no space for them. And also spending money when I really don't have to.

I got myself a new purse when I have like three or four other ones. When buying it, though, I promised to get rid of at least one of them. I want that mindset, that if I buy something, I must get rid of one or two things to replace it.

I brought up the purse because I also wanted to buy charms for it. I scrolled and scrolled on multiple sites to see which ones I wanted that would go perfectly with it. While doing that, I had this annoying feeling to just wait it out. Although I was annoyed, I continued to listen to it. A couple of nights later, I had a dream about my uncle telling me he was in love with me. Weird as hell, right? I was so disturbed and angry in my dream and also in waking life. I thought to myself, WTF could that have meant??? I usually pull Tarot cards for dream interpretation, but I didn't; I just went on with my day.

Now Selena, why are you telling us this is probably what you're thinking lol. I promise it's important. It shows that dreams aren't always so literal; sometimes it's just a symbol or a clue.

But anyway, I went to my room to get something but forgot what I went in there for. I was standing there staring at my wall when my eyes came across a key chain I had hanging. My uncle gave me that key chain, and it has "I love Dubai" written on it. It was exactly the type of charm/chain I wanted to put on my purse.

That small incident made me wonder how many things I own that I forget about and continue to purchase and consume more. Now, whenever I consider buying something, I ask myself if I already have a similar item. Does it need an upgrade, or is it still functional, and am I prepared to let go of the old item?

By doing this seemingly small thing, I can use my money effectively.

Money isn't the problem; it's how we use it. I don't want money to fuel greed any longer. I don't need all these excessive things. None of us do.